There is a story going around the internet about Van Gogh, that he wanted to eat yellow paint 'cause he thought it would make him happy. It might be a true story, might not be. It doesn't really matter. The truth is the same. We all have this painful desire for things that kill us. We hope they will make us happy, but they never actually do. Whether it's partying until you black out, or sexual relationships you know aren't right, we pursue the things that only bring us harm in the long term. They look good. But they aren't pointing us towards Jesus.
Don't eat yellow paint. Seek Jesus.